I want to be my best…

I’m Scared, worried, I just want to be amazing. I want to be exceptional I want to be the best. The best at cooking and the best at being me…I’m not there yet with either one. How can I get there? I don’t know yet and it is so frustrating. I just feel stuck. I had the worst night at Bistro Friday Night. Bistro is a class where the culinary department runs a restaurant every Wednesday and Friday night. I was so slow on Friday and I could not push through the pain I was feeling in my back. At the end of the night the class votes for LVP (least valuable player) and MVP.  I know I was voted worst on Friday and it kills me (they haven’t told me yet but I know I was). I just want to get better but I don’t know how. I’m going to figure it our though.